Exercise: How did you live actively in 2012? What will you change in 2013?
It seems fitting that the one post I procrastinated on and didn’t get written in time for yesterday was on the exercise prompt.
Story of my life. I don’t exercise, and apparently I don’t write about it either.
It’s on my mind often that exercising would be an improvement in my life. I’d be happier, healthier, I’d have more energy, more confidence, look nicer in clothes.
Really, for all of those benefits, I’m an idiot for not exercising more often. But I don’t. And I always say someday. And I still don’t.
I know that I can turn it around at any time and I can actually get off of my ass, walk all 11 steps down to the basement and get on the treadmill. And I have done that in little spurts where I’ll get the inspiration, do it for a week or two weeks, and then stop and never return.
Part of it is the fact that I hate physical exertion because it’s inconvenient for my medical issue of not being able to sweat from my head. This issue causes me to get dizzy and black out if I overheat. I combat this by spraying my head with a bottle of water as I work out. It’s not fun. It doesn’t always work as well as I’d like. The other part of hating exercise is laziness and the desire to do something else–anything else–with my time.
I would also love to say that 2013 is the year that I’ll turn it all around for myself and it’ll be the year of exercise and fitness. But just because I type it doesn’t make it happen. Just because I might want it, it still doesn’t make it happen. I have to actually ACT and I have to actually NEED to do it or it just won’t happen.
So this is my big downfall and it’s the most difficult part in my life that I face. I oftentimes feel defeated about the subject because it doesn’t matter how many times I’ve said “I’ll do it!” it just doesn’t get done. I just haven’t wanted it enough.